Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Three months - Reflections

I'll have my husband take pictures soon, but in the meantime here are some reflections as I pass my three month "surgiversary".

I think I'm a fast loser. But ya know what? I wish it was faster! I don't think anyone is ever happy with the rate of loss. We bariatric folks are put through A LOT. Our whole lives change! Is it to much to ask for instant gratification??? Haha - of course it's crazy talk, but I really think that is my problem. I feel like I DESERVE to be at goal because I had a major surgery, a major life change. Impatient? ABSOLUTELY!

As far as eating goes, I know I'm not the model patient. I can barely get in 2 oz at a time and I know I'm not hitting my protein goal every day. But I do what I can. I listen to my body and I've found a balance between my doctor's orders and my body's orders.

At the last support group I went to, the counselor said that we should be nicer to ourselves. We are so concerned about others' feelings and others' perceptions of us. But what about our feelings and perceptions of ourselves? Take time to breathe. Relax. Do what you enjoy. Most of us enjoyed eating and now...well, not so much. So concentrate on the other things you enjoy. Concentrate on family and actually talking while having a meal together.

I can't believe how much I've changed during these first three months. I can only imagine how I'll look back on the next three months! Having the sleeve surgery was the best decision I've ever made. Don't get me wrong - it's the hardest thing I've ever done and it is still an everyday struggle for me. But I wouldn't change it for all the biscuits and gravy in the world!